Soy un personaje ruso de Dostoievski

Golman pues

Si acaso rojo.

Si a caso, rojo.

Sí, ¿acaso rojo?

Si cazo rojos.

Sí, cazo rojos.

Rojos riman con hogueras.

La izquierda no supo si armarla de pedo.

¿Nos ofendemos?

Ahora sí.

Esto sí.

¿Ahora sí?

¿Esto? ¿Sí?

La lengua española es un gusto que bebe en copa. El latinito poco refinado toma guaro es vaso. ¿Qué pasa? Algún pedo. ¿Algún pedo?

La literatura más satelital se coció en el corazón de Copilco. Una escena de Golman volviendo a Copilco 300 y la banda entera nos rifamos un Bollywood de algo más que coyoacanenses: copilqueños. Antes que nada.

Antes que nada

No les digo. Sí les digo. ¿Qué creén? Can, kan, can, kan, can, kan.

La ortografía mexicana te salpica en los ojos. Da rabia. Es como nos enseñaron, en buena onda, a leer. Leemos los que podemos. La neta. Esa es la meritita verdad. Por esta. Ira. Ésta. Está. Estate. Date.

Un dait.

Yo soy muy newchilango; dispensenme.

Yo aprendí a ser / y estar en esta dualidad mexicana multiversal. En buen pedo, hay otro camino. Ustedes me lo enseñaron. Lo nuestro es primero, dicen allá. No ma-mes. No ma-men qué pedo los gringos? ¿De poca madre no? ¿De poca madre: no? ¡De pocamadre! ¡NO!

Ya te metiste en un pedo. El pedo ya se fue a la verga. Ahora todos somos gringos. Gringos nuevos. Gringos viejos. ¿Qué, pendejo? ¿Qué pendejo? ¿Qué? ¡Pendejo!

No es lo mismo. Nada es igual.

Todo tiene su qué, y es per se, cosa aparte. Cosa propia. La cosa en sí. Lo que los pinches alemanes no se ponen de acuerdo. La escuela de Einseinstein de postcinematografía. ¿Por qué apetecían más lo rusos? ¿Por qué siguen apeteciendo que son nuestros camaradas? Las risas rusas subidas de tono en un debate universal. ¿Qué digo universal? ¡Qué chingaos! ¡Multiversal! La nueva librería-editorial-sitio en la nube-alaverga, despegamos a su puta madre y nos lleva la santa chingada hasta la mamada que nos venga en gana nos teletransporta al espacio sublimado. El sitio en el que provocaremos el colapso total de todos los canales de comunicación. La visagra de la historia. ¿Por qué matarla? ¿Por qué acabarla? Esa es la pulsión de muerte malentendida; matar. ¿Pa qué matar? ¿Piensa? Pulsión la muerte del otro: cobarde. Para. Piensa. Baja el arma.

Fundámoslas.

Todas.

Al mismo tiempo.

Toma ya, utopía.

Toma ya Utopía.

Toma, ya utopía.

¿Toma…ya? utopía.

¿Toma? Ya. Utopía.

Historias de amor. Literatura mínima. Soy un poeta como Hugol gol; Golman, gol.

Pero me tuve que presentar al pueblo. Y el pueblo libre ascenderme al primer equipo.

La vuelta de Golman se hizo inminente: nuestro último cartucho.

No lo íbamos a gastar en un artículo para caballero.

Un artículo para dama. Mira los pinches pelos que traes. Eso es de puto. Y a mis hermanas, de paso, les llamó cartuchos vacíos. El mejor chiste de la historia. Fui testigo. Como Jesús en mercado a punto de arremeter con mala hostia a los pinches mercaderes. La furia de Jesús rebelde es la bondad más indispensable de la biografía de nuestra idealización del tiempo a partir de un gesto revolucionario. Piénselo, camaradas.

No hay meeting más dificil que el de la plaza pública. Y ahí estuve yo. Y dije lo que tenía que decir al respecto. Y sabemos que puede funcionar de una manera distinta. Yo estoy aquí para cambiar el bounce back. ¿Por qué habrían de ser los pinches gringos los que nos llevan a las antípodas de esta pinche mierda gringa? ¿Quiubo?

Híjole. Te pasaste.

Así piensa mi vieja. Es gachupina, se tiene que entender. Ser así de mexicano con esta intensidad de vecindad es un sin vivir. Y nuestro pedo aquí está cabrón. Y la neta, puro pendejo. Ni uno se salva. Bueno sí, uno: Mario Padilla Padilla.

Mario fue una de las contadas personas con la que me puse en guardia y luché por alguna causa que aquél momento sólo funcionó como defensa personal. La utilización de los gestos del karateca en el salón de clase a los nueve años. El dominio del espacio como un shaolín en el imaginario de un pinche niño del DF que nunca ha visto a un chino en su vida. Ever. Te lo juro; por esta. ¿Está? ¿Se puede? ¿Nomás la puntita?

La mujer nunca alburea. Es lo más heteropatriarcal que puede haber. Negar a la mujer el arte de la jiribilla. Siendo ellas la neta suprema del sentido más cachondo de la palabra exacta. El romanceo de urbanidad eterna de un newchilango son palabras mayores que superan el pinche cuento del sarape de San Juan Diego. No se alebresten. Conténganse. Estensen. Aquí no va haber ninguna revuelta de Iztapalapa. Es lo que tiene Nezahualtcoyotl. Que siguen viviendo en la urbanidad que funciona aquí desde que ya eran un millón nomás ellos solos, mi capitán. ¿Qué hay que hacer? ¿Qué dice su manual de conquistador?

Nomás Perez Reverte no sabía dónde arguir que la conquista no requería manual. Se trataba de la obra transformadora de nuestra monarca que muy sabiamente supo alinear los intereses de las grandes familias nobles que correspondían a la gallardía de la lucha de la prominencia de nuestra obseción heteropatriarcal machista de la voluntad de invadir desde Polonía hasta New México. La última novela del primer novelista olmeca que vuelve a la vida desde el mundo de los muertos. No les dije que era una pinche visagra.

Ahora se aguantan. Ahí les va la historia de cómo les metieron la pinche verga enterita por el Chicharito Hernández.

La capital se derrumbó otra vez.

De risa.

De risa, con acento mamón.

Los fresas.

Los fifís.

Los fesas vs los fifis.

Los nacos vs los chidos.

Los bullys de la primaria vs los bullys de una clase arriba.

Esa vecindad cuenta. A los nueve años los de dies se empiezan a poner salsitas. Ojito. Aquí no se toca a nadie. Y quien quiera sufrir las consecuencias de asumirse como un macho machista trumpista epsteiniano: un hombre blanco de buena estampa. Los chicos blanco del poder y la gloria, los éxitos abrumadores de nuestro estilo de vida, nuestra literatura, nuestros genios, nuestros padres fundadores, nuestras madres fundadoras… wait… wait… wait… wait… wait… and you keep waiting until one day it happens. It solves itself. Through pain. The suffering of the blind folded minds who didn’t speak out against unjustice. The judge is you. As you, the macho.

As macho, then, you are doom.

You are scum.

Don’t need to feel too hurt.

Your masculinity is not only approved. You still get the girls. Either you are loaded with dollars, enough to pretend you are worth that rest competing to be valued through those standards. Trump América. The rich kids, their high school years, the narratives of the great story told by exclusivibly white tellers. So much principy. They are so cute. Ask any venezuelan. Venezuelan girls aim for two cities, nowadays. Miami or Madrid. They call it the MM choice of a venezuelan free soul of the latin center of one side of feministical ways, being others, and yet, one other pole in the antipodes of the system. De dual simplicity theorem.

I will present theorems without proper proof. Because if Donny Trump is taken seriously when he uses childish interpretation of the so seeked Real Reality Real Estate Truth. Reareareaest. REAREAREAEST.

I’ve made up a literary format. A unique way of looking at writing while just, you know, hand out in the highest aspirations of the soul: to be aware of once luck to be here. Alive. Today. As is. Thank god, we are. Thank god, this. The connection is there to gained in a strive to understand the stories from fragile souls of our generation. Forget starting with the succesful white dominant stories of great family succes. How much of that can we pin in your own heart struggle to elevate yourself in the current social estate of affairs. How is life possible without our little spec of dust. Your sprayed spore than took of to life as a vessel of a microscopial organism that would reak havoc in the host system of another human being no yet in the room.

I could go on with the narrative in an immediate manner. To evolve what I’ve raised as an expectation. It was going good. Or well, sorry. English is not my native Language. Yet I’m playing the role of using it as such with my daughter, Vera. She is the truth. I know. Meritxell knows. We are a happy couple. How? We are white. That’s enough. You make it. Even if you fake it. Especially if you faked it. No one can top you allin. You let it loose one day in mystical night back in San José. One of those Texas holdem nights in Shamú’s place. It was the nicest table to properly play against the best eight poker players in the city. I landed a table who’s seat were reserved and there was a queu expecting to be let in. The put money. Everybody does. That’s the taking in any poker story. Any gambling movie. It’s all real stories from people who’ve been a played in Casinos. As if they could beat the odds. O bring the lucky moment. Trust I do sometimes. I have, I mean. I don’t mean to bragg about that night. Or the night I touched a breast in Monaco because my mom ordered me to do so, and I always listen to my mother, Ito. My dad was there. Somewhere. They couldn’t get in. Meri and I did. And I was going to bring down the house. As I had touched a golded boob.

Boobs could be issue of this script. This book. What I am. What am I? The language has its significants. A new word for a new language: Ticatalán.

I started a language 9 years ago. It’s timing frame. It comes from the past. It will always do. Jesus tought of that. Legacy. What we will be remembered for. Writing about it. Somewhere. For you to read. A reading quest. A text to study. At which age? Nine. Nou.

Nou. Temps és ara. I ara la meva filla está preparat. El temps corre. I fa el compte enrere. La direcció és tan important en el aprenentatge de les matemátiques que hem de comenzar a estudiar les metáfores del limit que ens apropa a la entesa del càlcul diferencial. Perdoneu si de tant en tant us perdo per alguna cosa que considereu fora de lloc, o que mai us havien explicat. Normal. No sou matemàtics. Pero aquí tothom fa veure que és matemàtic. Només perque les matemátiques son més lliures que els matemàtics. Es a dir, els matemàtics poden ser lo lliures que ells mateixos creguin, o siguin, com vulguin. Com ells i elles vulguin. Les matemàtiques són més fines. Son millors. Pero el millor, gairabé sempre, es un home. Això, evidentment, potser masclista. I de fet ho és. Pero la meva experiencia és que havia uns homes que eren molt clavats d’una manera desorbitada, i quelcom neceari, tot i que no va ser el meu cas. La resta dels matemátiques hem d’aprendre a correr tant com els que entenen tot el que segueix.

La absurd afició a la màgia, lo fantàstic, lo sobrenatural, lo de fora d’aquí, es una barrera de fum que els hi hem comprat als americans com l’última veritat. Els hi xuclem la tita. No ens enganyem. O millor: enganyem-nos.

Amb aquest lema puc guanyar unes eleccions a Ticatalunya.

Aixó és cert. Perque aquesta terra només existeix cap enrera. Cap a l’altra direcció. Oposat de la narrativa que pugui fer el meu némesis, el meu veí, el meu estimat monstre de Sant Jordi. I aquell día, quelcom pensa en el drac, pero alguns li posan cara al monstre, i així, tot ho simbólic es fa part interior de la nostra interior lluita per no tenir por, i despertar, aquí, al lliço fantástica de dir: estic viu. Tiu. Collons. Qué bé.

I dius aixó, i la gent, alguna, potser no gaires, et voten. A tú. De no ris. De sopte: zazca.

Es diu clatajot.

Hi ha gent insoportable.

Els creuem al llarg de la vida.

Els veiem a l’espai públic. Pero ens coneixem des de l’escola. No voleu que us expliqui tot lo que vaig viure a les nou escoles que tinc a les meves esquenes. Aixó és molt gran. Ens estem cuidant a totes. I volem fer la volta enrera. Ens hem adonat que som la visagra de la pirámide. Mai posem l’ènfasi a la pantxa. No per coses bones. Potser per coses impúdiques. I potser alguns d’aquests pensaments siguis masclistes, o ens emportin irremediablement a fer sexe en aquell mateix moment, sense dubtes ni abussos de subnormals que no s’han enterat de lo que són les relacions igualitaries més súblims entre un cors i un altre que pujen, sense haber-se conegut fins ara, i trobant el moment i la ocasió pels cosos apropar-se, doncs, hmmhmm, in the way african american, the so called negroes in what was once known to be the history of the greates empire in our history of civilization up to now.

You see how americans can be taken to the superior stage of priviledge. The way an european white feels. The way the game board is controlled in any given direction of the succesful building of our community, our governance, our sofistication of public procurement, our digital transformation and education reform. The abolition of private schools. Whaaaaaaaaat?

White priviledge spanish decendants, portuguese decendants, chinesse decendants, olmecan decendants, mixe, capulinos, aztecas, mixtecas, zapotecas, mayas, negros, zambos.

ALLS

Biden won

Flip.

Yesterday’s news.

The future belongs to them: Biden & Harris.

74 million voters: blue.

70 million voters: red.

A nation divided in two. The duality spell. Or society is fully aware of its division. We all want to be on one side. Not the other. Repeat: not the other. Thank God. Goddamit.

It’s a matter of faith. Or lack of.

Don’t get hushed.

Still, life goes on.

Sad or hopefull.

Revenge or peace.

Take a fit or take a pill.

Chill pill.

Chill bitch.

Breath like a true New Américan.

New América First.

MAGA lost.

There’s an indian dancing in Washington. He’s surrounded by kids. They are laughing with joy. Not that laugh. Not that laugh. Country united. United states. The law prevails. Democracy wins again. Election day.

The race is over. AP call it: it’s over. Biden won. Stop the winning, biatch.

Here are the results:

The thirteen colonies voted blue. The people from the Mayflower. That’s something.

What used to be México (somebody has to see this analysis) voted in mixheartedly. The lone star stands tall red. You can see México in the edge our the silloute of Trumps’s imaginary, and real, wall. It’s that white ghost down south. There’s another line, ficticious if you may, but also historical, that marks those seven states. Another red one: Utah. The rest: New México, Colorado, Arizona, Nevada and last, but by no way least, California, are all blue. In the little election played by these symbolic partitions of our neighbourly country, the result places part of the global situation of this divison: blue on top of red.

There is still a flyover state scene. Blue América flies to blue states. Red América stays still. Does not fly. It’s a stay at home state of mind. And no one else’s allowed. Apparently Mexico payed for the wall. And dreamers were placed in cages. Families separated. Concentration camps of our current state of affairs. Let us be reminded of the hideous stains from recent events. And the anguish of the desplaced. Mistreated down south, in their own missery, by our own cultural drive for drugs, our weapons dependency, our war-loving thrill, our violent nature, and our cinical economical stability standards. Markets are up. Let’s run the show. Let’s deal, this time seriously, with the virus. Or was whats his name the virus?

Biden won. Harris, man, as well. A woman. The legacy of comming from India and Jamaica. Ya, man. Oh, whatating. Ommmmmmmmm……….

Mixed Culture Nature. MCN, like it’s now called. By me, at least. The placement of elsewhere, also here. As if we belong together. We need this sort of leadership. We can built bonds with this kind of nation. Yet, we aknowledge what has happened as a curiosity of our days. The rise of entertainment and white power supremacy intentions. And some of that stays put in our hard drives. As we’ve seen shit go on. And this shit is by no means minor, nor over. We are not in a resolved state of affairs. The quest is inmense. But I trust and old man’s leadership. And the tandem of a dancing women in charge of operations, with that leadership white catholic men lack of. Don’t get me wrong. We need this kind of mix symbolisms in our division bell.

Pensilvania, and the bell that stands for democracy, voted blue. And red. There’s red votes everywhere. But there’s more blue hope. And we are feeling blue today. This American donkey feeling. The world assists at yet another entertainment event from the first nation, acording to them, to the narrative of the land of the free and the rockets RED glare. The bombs bursting in air. The flag. The stripes, blue/red. The stars. And Puerto Rico.

Miami is red. No wonder, Eipstein. Nevermind. Latinos in their capitalist capital. Allow them to feel safe. Red away from the red. The ghost of the commies. Grow up, fools.

Georgia blue is dream. A dream of south turning blue. It’s a miracle. A way of looking at the end of division. The deep south finding the explantation workers in the demographic flip that will turn the pages of this nation’s future. Peacefully. White’s chill. Nobody is here to go against your anglican morals bullshit supremacy. Or aren’t they…?

Chill pill. Common. Don’t get angry. Nor even. Stop the hate pattern in your head. Relax. Don’t flex your muscles. Live your war toys in the cabinet. You ain’t at war. Not every day is final combat day. Stop playing fornite. Or killing zombies. Breath. A sigh of relief. Just stop. Hear the music. Sing. As the caged bird longs for freedom. And you still stand in the land of the free. So common.

Look at the map. Check Canada out. Check the Mexico profile. We are a floating image in your mind. Nothing else matters. The world is looking at us. We are in the center of the eternity. Like God intended with our stupid pride. God bless only US. Our own. Our values. Our history. It all stands taller than Tenochtitlan. Or the hills of Montezuma. Look at the Gulf. Our gulf. Even if it’s partly Mexican. We can still drill sideways. Frickingly frackingly. Atlantic coast. East coast. West coast. Pacific. Peace. The square states. Far west. The rush for the land. And the gold. Forget the local dwellers. Indian territories. Respect. Nations within nations. Is that too hard to get?

Loussina, Alabama, Missouri, Arkansas, Oklahoma, Tennesse… surprisingly red. Not. Business as usual. Alrigh, alright. But there’s the blues. There’s a conspirancy of the dunces taking place. Mardi Gras. French in the picture. A flow of an international mixtape. And the swamps we’ve encountered while rading the seas in search for the Spanish vessels that extracted the gold from the mines. Developing nations standing on the shoulders of their colonial days. Prior independence day.

OOOOOOOO-K-lahoma where the wind sweeps, the weaving wheat, and Curly. We get it.

Biden won. He told the nation he’s going to unite them. It’s what all president-elect say. It’s part of the political scenery. Part of the script. So is accepting defeat. If you are trained for that. The man in the seat is going to make it look like a battle. The voice of those supporters are going to be waiting for their leader to show the way. The are standing by. And the boys mean business. But the land of the free has an institution driven main field. And will not allow otherwise to stain the symbols of the legacy. The whole architecture is in place for an outsider to create havoc. We are too old of a nation for that.

Mexico deserves better. And when I say Mexico I mean the whole back patio. Youknowaraimean. Mexicans. Latinos. Potato, potato.

Robinette is in. Not the first one in the family. Incumbent: new word. 46th.

You can find him on those profiles. And everyone. We are all in it. Playing the game. People also search for them. Some are going up. Some are going down. Everyone smiles in their profile. Almost everyone.

The news has spread. The president himself is a news outlet. Just like the one before. Or never again. The media. You know. The media players. Warren. The others. The interest of the markets. Don’t spoil it, kid.

Joe send a written message to the people.

If you want to shop, you may. It’s New América.

A new era.

A new cicle.

A bright future ahead.

May God, if indeed He is watching, look upon the people traveling across the univers chasing the sun, and the rest of the planets, in that chilling expectacle of our solar system dance.

ALLS

Morir de nuevo

Morir a punto.

Morir y resistir.

Morir de un susto.

Despertar de la muerte.

Apretar: rescate.

Y el cuerpo aguanta.

Revive.

Vivo.

Milagro.

Otra vez.

¿Qué fue eso?

Un aviso.

Un síncope.

Un día así.

Un disgusto.

Una cena demasiado abundante.

Mala elección.

Sobresalto.

Músculo maestro.

Mueca de resistencia.

Respuesta física.

Cortar el sueño.

¿Estás aquí?

Estoy.

A punto.

¿Qué fue eso?

Eso.

Esto.

Aquí.

Otra vez.

Puta madre.

Un día no…

Ni lo digas.

Otra vez.

Moriré.

Ya está.

Es así.

No hay remedio.

Aquello es así.

Para todos.

Para todo Dios.

Para cada uno.

Para bien.

Para mal.

Para no armarla de pedo.

Por cualquier pendejada.

Se nos va la vida.

En un disgusto tonto.

En un suspiro.

Mi último suspiro.

Como Buñuel.

Pero sin obra.

Sin fe.

Con júbilo.

Perdido.

Salvo ese último momento.

Ese final.

Desgraciado.

Vete.

Ven.

Paz.

Fin.

ALLS

New América News

NAN is the new name of our nation.

Welcome!

It’s been a tough time to come out of the cocoon.

We are beautiful Monarca butterflies now.

Heading to collective approach.

We are feeling glow from the world.

As they see we’ve changed gears.

We’ve lauched a chorus.

A chant of joy.

A new beginning.

A holy choice.

A peace of mind.

A great decor.

A big wave left.

A riding the nose pose.

A surfa dude.

A perfect ride.

A balancing act.

A tender joy.

A high level connection.

A spice up joke.

A stolen smile.

A broken laugh.

A true good time.

A joy in glow.

A flow to go.

A wishing well.

A spell to spill.

A spit to trust.

A Trump new show.

A entretainment news.

A media fan base.

A republican buying Jordans.

A rich black Chappelle.

A bonding jew up to nothing.

A comedian fellow brown.

An etnicity contest backwards.

A true history fake.

A not included in the test class.

A funny story literature.

A written programme for commies.

A university class on russian insolents.

A punk culture counter narrative.

A fascist spoting game.

The white supremacist blind black.

Chappelle’s way up. And out. And back. The traveling of the wondering brother.

The suburbs of middle class reconstruction.

The art of telling jokes.

The punchlines jar.

The time to joke around.

The good times the smart funny people from the New América rising are having. .

Can they admite a little bit of heat?

How much heat is too much heat?

Do we critice of support this seeing this from abroad?

Is it like the fraud in votes in Bolivia?

Which time?

Is it like the fraud democracy of Venezuela?

Which time?

Is it like the broken election of Nicaragua?

Is it like the communist party in Cuba?

Remember the Russians?

Which Russians?

Where’s the wall?

Who’s the enemy?

Who’w targetting our system?

How did they find out of our bigotry?

How long have they know?

Is there a back door out?

I don’t want to be here any longer.

Take me with my king.

And find me there among the millions.

Us millioners.

The life of the higher class.

The ruling of the deamons from our classical bullshit stories.

Old stories new.

New old shit.

Revolving doors.

Outome: democracy.

You are the system.

You go an vote.

Or stay home.

And criticize.

You are a bit of a scum somethings.

Like taking risks.

Like not believing.

Like loosing faith.

Like having no hope.

Come one: cheer up.

You rock.

You up there with the angels.

Come on Lucifer, forgive me.

I’v judged you like I did with Mexicans

I’ve judged you like I did with Jews.

I’ve judged you like I did with macho dickheads.

I’ve judged you like a mother fucker.

I’ve judged you like cunt licker.

I’ve judged you like a true infamous slob.

I’ve judge you like a fake deal.

I’ve judge you like a pretending fool.

I’ve judge you like a literate scumbag.

I’ve judged you too many times.

And have had such a hard time,

to be placed under your feet.

to fell the way you do as you see things from here.

He has to tell us something.

Please do.

I’ve got to run.

This is the political update comming right away from our news corresponsal at the premises. This is the people that are passing right back here.

Two white Americans born in the 1940’s. They heard Sinatra sing. Florida is no longer the place, but Delaware. A little different in the west colonies. White latinamerican lovers of Trump portrait of our class. The touched by the finger of God, good warm hearted fearers of the wrath of God if we pro choice our way about the affair. But, let’s center in the graphic. What’s there to tell. That the race is almost done. The blue is approaching the finish line. And Trump hates to loose. The country diveded. Blue cities, red interior. Density of population. Distribution of the land. The workforce. New approaches. Turning the system around.

Blue and red America. Fly over states. How rude. Division. Labor. Crisis. Tension. The game is called democracy. And it must be defended. The military ought to know better. They’ll know. That’s the main focus on our defence strategy. Not to step in red lines. Over and over. With no excuse. Just the will. Because I can.

Hasta aquí el reporte. Volvemos al estudio.

What’s with the world?

Here we are, paying attention one more time to the election for the quest of the empire. The United States of América, one more time inside our current estate of affairs. Is it really that important to see the crumbling monster fall into the ground? Maybe. As the system stands tall in the basis of the not so hidden agenda of this one narrative of the good. We know who they think evil is, even if its face changes more often than the némesis of James Bond. Or the James Bonds themselves. The character outlives the actors who depict the epic quest of a spy on the right side of history.

That’s the narrative of good and evil from the pages of history. The antagonizing need to have evil acting on the quest against the good willing people of the earth. It’s a matter of easy choices. We want to be on the right side of the story, and therefore, we want to be on the wider strokes that paints the picture of our time. This is how superheroes make things work. By acting upon the evils of society, clearly depict with the multiple faces of evil. Better if the picture described has a single face to deal with, and not those exotic nemesis that we fall in love with because we feel the attraction of the devil calling for our basic instincts to join a revolution that destroys the act of God, Himself. That would kill God. And we, the humble servants and worshipers, may not allow such thing to happen, as if the supreme leaders of the underworld would need the action of us, virus, to heal the wounds from the head to head at the higher ends of the pyramid.

Just chill, bro. The military’s got our back. You hear the laughs that have been recorded from the videos in Abu Ghraib. Oh, oh, oh… wait a minute. It’s a trap. Everybody, down. We have been ambushed. Semper-fi, semper-fi,… brothers, brothers,… where art thou?

You will not play with the pilars of our faith.

It’s too sensible.

Nobody fucks with that.

Nobody.

And we are supposed to think that’s reasonable. Because we have a set of values that shape who I am. Because those values were introduced into my life by my cultural trainers. My parents. My school teachers. My friends. The government. The news. The journalists. The newspapers. The publishers. The authors. The people society praises. The influencers of our time.

Let’s assume everything went down the drain. We’ve been flushed out. We’ve got fired by the people. Sort of what Trump is feeling right now. But he can’t stand to loose. He wants to take action. Stand by proud boys. It’s our time for militia. Now they’ll know. This kind of back up from straight up fighters for a higher good: our own. Our personal view of the really really good. The good «I» represent. The good that takes the hand of God and delivers the challenge of our day: to make the system fall.

América will crumble to the ground. And the entire world will watch in awe what they were expecting for so long: the fall of the empire. The crumbling of the Death Star. By this group of rebels, with guns and shit, taking down the road for the deliverance of their quest: salvation. Or some sort of paranoia. One of them conspiracies in their one online book: face.

They want to be a part of history that takes place in worlds that are closer to the superheroes they praise as real. The entertainment they love to fall for. Like Trump’s tv shows. Like being in part of his legacy. That’s what it feels like to them. They are following the lead of a lunatic that has made a brand of himself, and mirrored a lost country in itself. That’s me/you, he said. And the found «US». The you es. Ese.

Batos from Mexico voting for Trump. They know what’s happening down south, they say. They’ve seen the violence in their communities take over. A sort of thing, that somehow, does not show its face in the communities where they’ve landed a «life». It’s been illegal for some time. But now, after years of struggle, they are in. They are part of this final frontier. The place where everybody wants to be. The bar at Cheers. They are sitting within the sitcome that represents their improved life. Join them, they feel. It’s only fair I think for our own sake. They, the others, that resemble you I was, are now, as I’ve learned to believe, are the evil comming to mess up our fairy land.

Some crooked way to think, but yet the populist have established the line of what’s the complete story you must believe in order to be called one of us. Are you with «US» or with «them»? So these people, are led to believe that they will win some points by joining the counter argumentative place where they belong. Just because they feel like they don’t belong to the high paced good hearted way of being from here. They are mainly brushed by a sense of something else, that their fellow country men are missing out on. And they just like to call them one name: dumb.

This is part of where the situation gets to a quick quarrel against the others. They started to call me names. Now I’m just defending myself. But they are not right. They use fallacies to convey a story that’s clearly fake news. It’s been like that that they have introduced lies in the agenda of our once great country. But we want to make it great again. And we are not going to let fraud take this from us. Proud boys, are you ready?

Obviously the proud boys are standing by. And what will be of the military when the militas take the stands where they are supposed to be protecting the institutions they’ve sweare to defend. Rebelion is on the table. As so happens, those proud boys are also the military. Oh… whaaaaaaaat….

Wait, you didn’t see that one coming? Really. It’s, the least, surprising. But let me go on with this literary excersise of the shit hitting the fan. Tongue licks lips; first the top one, then, the bottom one, and then moving back in. Darkness is bright these days. It’s the pilars of a new system figuring out where to built either havoc or grace. But grace had been shadowed by the new ways of the family in power. Much like a tyranny of cynycal one. The cynycal ones. It’s a spiral of deceit. The glow of gloom. The dust comming in.

Trump or Biden

That’s a choice in the USA. Wow. Those people.

Trump’s a hack. And also a virus. And a russian spy.

Biden is not Trump.

That would be all you need to know to make a choice.

Choice matters.

We(you) get to pick.

Dicotomy: a simple choice.

Democracy has led us here: blue or red.

Like the pill we ought to take.

It’s all in the gender dilema.

It’s all in the bible: evil or good?

It’s a simple «Américan» story.

A new nation, says the oldest.

The uttermost respect for the origins.

Except for those who wondered this land.

As we come, in pilgrimage, to a land that shall be Europe.

Eurocentrism travelled across the world.

Far far away in an epic ethernal return to Alexander.

As any white male would portray his quest: warrior-king.

A queen is comming.

She’s 15.

The ruling of another girl, like that catholic one that established morality law.

The king is well prepared to fly a plane, a submarine or a drone.

Let’s compare the dick structure of our noble men.

Line them up in terms of succesory rights: 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,….

Somewhere in that list: Floiran.

Como Ledezma, un rebelde con la cause abierta y la sandre brotando a borbotones.

Palabras sofisticadas para una mente pueril.

El tío Jacobo me regaló un libro.

O una editorial.

Pero no leo letra pequeña.

A penas interpreto mis sueños… despierto.

No tengo vocación para atender a mi llamado.

Soy un lacayo de mi amo, asilvestrado y mentecato.

No visto así para gustarte.

¿Acaso yo me gusto así?

Los de aquí, los de antaño, los nuestros.

La falacia más sublime de nuestra subnormalidad prescrita.

La vida es nación y naciones sueños son.

La unicidad vence ante las cabezas demoniacas de nuestro perturbado acosador.

Venezuela y Rusia mueven ficha para derrocar al reino elegido por Dios Padre.

Dios hijo hablaba español en la intimidad, salvo con los Pujol.

El azar unió varios capos en una fiesta de primera comunión.

La diversión, el baile, las mujeres, las armas en los coches, y los cantos de sirenas.

El poder emborrachado avalentonado como un giro de guion inesperado.

Las balas de Villa en el imaginario de quién desde abajo representa la toma de Columbia.

Forajidos por el sur penetrando nuestro muro.

Pagado por nosotros y nosotras.

Las armas no se venden solas.

Las drogas no se esnifan solas.

Ya nomás faltaría que la demanda sea imaginada.

Que no exista nada detrás.

Que las almas sin pena se crucifican al compás de la música angelical de cima del poder.

El dj es un presidente que no requere la verdad, ni la razón, ni la voluntad, ni la palabra.

Los consejos de Eipstein sirvieron para congregar las compañías requeridas para la fiesta.

Las elecciones se ganan como la entrada a una fiesta de Eipstein en la que Weinstein baila.

El poder de los titanes se contagia entre los grandes totems sociales del cinismo.

El silencio de los transeuntes que se enfilan a las urnas silenciosos, esta vez para sacarlo.

La otra vez se vieron abocados a un ritual de deseperación y autocomplacencia.

El riesgo de la América blanca que siente el latir café y amarillo de los otros colores.

El negro está en nuestro pecado original, y ya supimos cómo «asimilarlo».

Pero los nuevos otros…

Terrible nuestro destino abotargado en una infinita persecusión de nuestros némesis.

El colapso de nuestro entender anónimo más allá de los slogans.

El marketing es nuestro pastor, todo nos apetecerá.

No falta nada, pero tengo acceso a un capricho más.

Me permito la vívida concepción de un delirio enquistado en la memoria.

El volcán respira hondo en su último anhelo de bondad.

La ciudadanía de la metrópolis se dirige por los senderos de abismos bifurcados.

El espejismos está ahí, y hemos ayudado a alimentar el sentido del bienestar.

Los socios nos siguen atónitos a nuestra penúltima comedia.

Las estrellas de otros tiempos se liman las uñas en el contexto reconstruido de su fama.

La elección es un indicio de fatiga existencial que nos abrirá finalmente la gran puerta.

El desperatar de los pueblos contrapuestos en la elección de lo binario.

Lo que queda excluido es la noción martirizada de la tracción de unos valores revestidos.

Lo que es y la apariencia de serlo.

El sueño americano finalmente se proyecta en cada pantalla de nuestra distopia.

La actividad frenética de los mercados.

La bolsa fluctua.

Los dólares se mueven.

La economía teje dentro de cada ciudadano una especie de país singular hipercapitalista.

La felicidad está en el desprecio por todo lo que no sea el individuo.

El egoismo se vive al máximo al acceder a los niveles más palapables del privilegio.

La pirámide se hace cada vez más exclusiva sin lugar para todos los contendientes.

La vida resurge como un lucha tenaz en la que sólo vale subir.

Y la competencia me permite aplastar a mi rival más próximo.

A la que puedo apoyar mi bota sobre la cabeza del que me sirve de escalera…

Subo, y subo, y no paro de ganar.

Mi despegue es mi porvenir.

El anhelo de la cima.

El suspiro de ganar.

Hasta la victoria.

Siempre…

ALLS

Tengo un secreto que contarles

Hace tiempo que escribo y no sé muy bien por qué. Tampoco sé si tiene sentido escribir. O si alguien tendrá el más mínimo interés en leer mis textos. Lo peor es que no se tratan de historias, ni siquiera de cuentos, ni de ningún otro tipo de formato literario con el que un ávido lector se pueda sentir seguro. O segura. Probablemente atraiga antes a una lectora que a un lector. No por nada. Simplemente leen más. Eso está demostrado. Las estadísticas literarias son muy claras en ese respecto. Sólo hace falta ver la gente que trabaja en el mundo editorial. Las mujeres son mayoría. Y los hombres, ya se sabe, unos machistas. Ahgg.

En fin, si yo fuera uno de ellos rápidamente me daría asco de mi mismo. No tardaría en autoetiquetarme para estar en el grupo de lo más periférico de los autores. Quizás escogería estar con los autores que no lee nadie. Eso sí sería reconfortante. La inseguridad que nos precede, tan sólo confirmada por la helada indiferencia de mis lectoras. Ellas mismas se han conjurado a no leerme nunca. Quizás sea una frase fuera de contexto, o un párrafo en un post de hace más de 9 años, que escribí sin entender muy bien quién era la persona que decía dicha palabra. Puede que haya sido el personaje el que la escribiera, pero ese matiz no lo sabría entender esta lectora, no por una incapacidad personal, sino por mi inoperancia como escritor para sentar las bases de mis historias con las estructuras que deben, por fuerza, tener todos los textos. No se vale, insisto, despistar al lector con palabrerías que no van a ninguna parte, porque entre otras cosas, ¿qué sentido tendría?

Quizás la búsqueda del sentido no es un fin en sí mismo. O quizás algunos autores sí que lo consiguen, y con ello, sus historias brillan en las mentes de sus transformados lectores. Las lectoras ya no leen a autores insípidos que son catapultados a un olimpo de la literatura maquinado para sentar a hombres seniles en un círculo de machos alfa que sostienen la pluma con la que escriben en una mano, y con la otra la polla del escritor al que rinden pleitesia. Se trata de un ritual masónico que sirve para poner las letras en la cumbre de la civilización, justo en medio entre el poder y el dinero, como un mecanismo autónomo que aceita los engranajes del simulacro social al que pertenecemos. De no existir la literatura se romprería el cículo de los alfa. Sobrarían manos. Y no se generaría el estímulo sagrado de los esbirros lamiendo los huevos de sus amos.

Con esto no quiero desvelar uno de los secretos mejor guardados de nuestra sociedad. Sino tan sólo advertir de mi incapacidad, y quizás fuerza de voluntad, para crear una obra literaria que me acercara a la fatídica circunstancia de haber de decir que no al círculo de poder. En cuyo caso, la situación podría enmierdarse rápidamente, ya que tienen vías muy sugerentes para alisar las críticas de los autores latinoamericanos que aterrizan en la madre patria con la intención marcial de subir al olimpo de los dioses. La literatura siempre ha sido el último refugio de los soñadores que buscan en este otro simulacro el anhelo de ser aquél otro, si tan sólo hubieran nacido en el lado acertado de la pirámide.

No se trata pues de un fraude. Ni siquiera de un complot de los literatos y los editores. Ni un sistema de explotación de masas para consumir más palabras de las que tenemos capacidad de digerir. No tenemos tanto tiempo como para perder en obras insignificantes que ni siquiera han pasado el filtro de las vías formales de la edición. La imprenta marcó el camino, y ahora, los editores, pretenden marcan las mentes de sus masas de lectores que se abarrotan en las liberías como hordas de alocadas adolescentes tras los huesos de su estrella pop.

Las generaciones globales siempre han buscado la satisfación, el goce, la salida. Y a la vez, el espejo en el que reflejar la imagen proyectada desde lo más profundo de sus anhelos. El deseo de poder observar, con sus propios ojos, que los sueños del querer-ser se han posado sobre la realidad asumida como un tejido de partituras en las que nos hemos colado hasta la cocina del porvenir. Y la única manera de conseguirlo es burlando todas las barreras que se nos levantan al pretender dar un paso más allá de lo que nos es permitido, según nuestros propios estándares, y según las reglas que se nos han transmitido, y que de manera singular, hemos aprendido a enmarcar nuestro ser, al mismo tiempo que intentamos dudar al máximo de su utilidad, y por tanto, nos alejamos vertiginosamente de su uso. Nuestros gestos contradictorios no consiguen la libertad, sino sellar al máximo la capacidad limitada que tenemos para entender, desde fuera, el entramado de la trampa perfecta que nos hemos articulado con nuestro hacer, pensar y dudar. No dejamos lugar a la fuga, que por otro lado, nos llevaría a asumir el viaje por el único túnel que vemos a nuestro alrededor. Y los que han bajado por es hueco se han topado con el eco indisolubre de la fragilidad desgarrada.

Un grito nos abre la piel, dándole la vuelta. Las vibraciones del aullido se cuelan en los poros y entran a los órganos que organizaron la revuelta. Se desata una reconstrucción interior de los roles de los órganos, quienes son llevados por la vía del libre albedrio, y que sin embargo, sienten la opresión de dejar sus puestos para asumir, a partir de ahora, que son algo más. El engranaje se pone en marcha sin dilación. Rápidamente se encuentran las alianzas del nuevo orden y se permite la escritura de un modulo central que rige los movimientos y las alarmas de la continuación deconstruida de nuestro ser. El cerebro sostiene las vías de deglución de los alimentos ya triturados y dispuestos a pasar por su circuito cerrado de electrocalibraciones. Los excedentes se vertirán por las tres vías de salida de los desechos: los ojos, la boca y las orejas. La disposición de estos ya no está en la cabeza, que ni siguiera tiene sentido en este contexto quimérico. La lengua se ha apoderado del circuito pensante que actúa sobre los demás órganos, con la ayuda mecánica de un corazón abierto que se ha alineado para abrirse de brazos mientras abraza el que hasta ahora era el órgano sexual de la persona. Es aquí en donde el ano y prepucio observan el exterior de nuestro ser, y se relacionan con un lenguaje sofisticado que extiende los tejidos del sistema nervioso entrelalazados con las arterias y las venas, de manera consustancial en mensajes dispuestos ante nuestros interlocutores, para reestablecer el contacto mutuo con inmediatez de las formas, los olores, y la geometría del mito que se teje en la mesa de interlocución, cuyo marco ha sido engalanado con los huesos más robustos en el esquema de proyección. Los dedos de las manos y los pies desplazan la nueva endidad con la tracción suficiente para el encuentro con nuestros semejantes. Los tejidos de los músculos se han reconfigurado para llevar una capa que dignifique al nuevo ser en su ecosistema de navegación continua. El uso de los bellos, cabellos y uñas se guarda para las alegorías sagradas de los encuentros que ameriten la ocasión. El resto de órganos se reconfiguran entre ellos para mostrar un elemento sofisticado de elegancia que va mutando en cuanto se percata del encanto y la seducción compartida con otro ser circundante. La memoria se almacena en una epidermis de genes que destellan una luz que se emite y que refleja la comunicación en las antenas receptoras de otros seres, que funcionan como repetidores involuntarios de los mensajes discontinuos del ecosistema. Las neuronas se han distribuido por doquier, sin que sea neceario, ni buscado, mantenerlas trabajando continuamente. De hecho, muchas de ellas se desprenden del organismo por el placer de marchar. Levitan pues en el ambiente, sin que nadie las condicione. Habitando las diferentes esctructuras de los nuevos cuerpos. Son los seductores portadores de las tribus nómadas en movimiento.

Es ahí, en este último éxodo, en donde encontramos al persoaje principal de esta historia: Dionisio99.

44

Some days you find yourself turning the page. Life is full of days, and that should be enough. We only have a few and we don’t ever listen. Not even to ourselves. Life’s about to end. And still, life is just a walk outside your place, somewhere, where you’ll encounter… life. Other people’s life. Full of circumstances, vices and hopes. Life’s what comes out of todays journey. Wherever we go. However we choose to go about it. Life is beginning new projects, even when it seems out of the norm. Specially then. I never know if specially goes with a letter e at the beginning, or if that’s just me being latino all over again.

What am I supposed to do? Who am I supposed to be? Still no answer. Still wondering about something else rather than what I must. I do this unconciously, or maybe, purposedly. I don’t have an answer for that either. I am more of a question guy, I guess.

I have limited time. Sometimes you have to remind yourself. Sometimes you need to hammer the head that’s avoiding to pay attention to your inner «Pepito Grillo» to come to those senses intended to be your landing spot. Why should I go there? Why should there be a place in which by my own deliverance I shake up the world that surrounds what I am supposed to be at the moment? Why would anyone, including me, care?

I don’t… know. I do care. I think.

Life is but a game. This illusion has been there forever. I might be dying inside, as we all are, and there must be a way to accept to take part in this new thing comming up. Today. I turn the page again around the sun. I’ve turned 44 years old. It’s the 20th birthday I celebrate in Barcelona. This city has evolved into something else. The place is ready to give back 1992 and enter right into the 80’s back again. Bring back the wall as we need this new decade facing backwards inside the room. Who’s in the back of the class? Why are they there? What is it they want? That’s where innovation is taking place within the social disruption scene. And in the front rows might be the scientists. They want change to. They have skills, several degrees, a method and a topic they know all about. In the middle, people caught between the poles of the class. Or the classes going about their own path to fulfillment. They are all in the same room. As we are. We belong to the front of the class as much as to the back of it. Only, as Woody Allen played it early on, he only had a chance to go to the back of the class and choose from the options in that side of the board. Who’s making a living out of their own wit? Artists? People creating new narratives. People pushing the boundaries. The Charlie Chaplins. Cinema is entertaining and feeding people with stories that go out of bounce. The gameplay is being leveled by those outsiders. And we, in the middle, get to watch.

Scientists go about the way they got there: excellence. And studying. And observing. And asking the right questions. And making science. All the time. All the time. Until the impact factor hits the roof. Then they’ve made it. If not before, when they have already stablished a role within a lab. Making a difference from the lab bench. Finding new ways to push through the limits of their own view of the world, through the microcrospe. Through their practice.

We are called to make a stand to risk everything in order to be a part of a bigger process. This insurgency meets the needs of a society that is full of resentment towards the other, and where conspiracies are thrown at each other to debunk the fundamental issues that hold each others arguments. But it’s not like fight. It’s not war. We are taken to scenarios of violence because that’s been the case all over history. It’s the norm in our history, according to our storytellers. And we have found it normal. Customary. Was is just around the corner. Again.

New tensions in the middle east. The old commies vs uncle Sam. Nazis taking over. North Korea pushing the button. Trump playing war games. Drones flying to get you. A bullet your way. Paramilitares taking on environmental activists. Minning, the old fashion way. The land being taken from it’s local communities. Deforestation. Devastation. No jobs. No movement. No social non violent uprising. Who’s next? What’s next? Why now?

It seems like life is taking a spin. Pandemia has shown us a way of coping with our priorities. And somehow, we have all noticed how screwed we are/were. But it’s not on us. We avoid to fall into the place where society is being judged. We are coping with illnesses as we go about a dayly routine back to the old days. The new days have no shape yet. They are only real in our imagination. And sometimes, we forsee a bright and prosperous future. Some others, we are gloomed into despair by the blindness of our own.

How to change ? Why change? Why now? Against who? People are choosing to take sides. And two poles are always there colliding. No atraction/repulsion is taking more than two poles. Unless we create a new electromagnetic field. Complexity then play it’s own balancing game. Structural entrophy. Balance. Stability. Or ultimately, a bomb.

We’ve all taken a blow at the head. Sad news have come our ways as we have experience a new way to be caged. The caged bird still sung. And there, within that unfair imprisonment, freedom was casted with the spirit of heirs of dinosaurs. Not a small heritage on their tiny little shoulders. Sing bird. An eagle’s scream. A dove’s coo. I know why the caged bird sings. Freedom.

Are we there yet, mom?

Work package X

I nearly died just now. I had one of those coming back from the death moments. Near death experience. On my sleep. Digestive system working extra hours to digest that stupid pizza, already mixed with the wine, cabró. Cabrón. It was a call to exit. Golmanxit. Work pakcage currently unavailable. The line has been cut. A green color that identified that the activities were in the happy face state are now in a red X, that comes with: game over.

I will die one of these days. Yet today I cheated Death. Not my ticket. Not my time.

Outside it rains. I can hear the drops falling and hitting the roof of the building. Somewhere up there. Life has taken a toll for me. This is another situation I was warned to aknowledge.

I’m just working class nobody who’s life has made a turn for the good. I’ve got a decent job that could earn me a living doing what I do best. I can feel I’ve come to the place I was called to be useful to society once again. Only to fall short of that cliffhanging moment.

Life’s a bitch, ain’t it. So why waste it.

I’ve been here and there. And yet, today was a good day. It was my wife’s saint day. La Nostra Senyora de Meritxell. My Andorra matrone. My catalan root. My partner in crime.

I woke here up when I came out from the death call. I literally had to snap out of the hands of the Calaca. I was out, then I fought myself to consciousness back again. That’s it. That was my last dance. I better run, or rather jump, or I’ll stay death for ever.

Death has handed me a token. It is this I’m suppossed to unveil.

We are at the top of the priviledge pyramid. I’ve come to terms with that. I ate too fucking much pizza today. Too late. Two too many slices. I called for it. Or maybe I have al ulcer. And I’ll die anyway. I mean, I’ll day anyway. I know. But not today. Not now. Like back then. Just now.

I’ve cheated death in a duel. I’m a slippery fish off the hook. Nobody said it was going to be easy.

Golman died today, may he rest in peace.

I can’t rest because this throw back diggestive reflux is hunting me down. Death’s out there wondering. And my wife has awaken me two times already. She’s afraid one of those snores will kill me now.

—Qué susto—she said, as she was surprissed out of the dream as well.

I pulled her out from Morfeo’s arms. I was there and then, and Death painted my waters to clogg on me like haunted nightmare back to life. Still, chill, I’m ill, not still.

Comedians in cars getting coffee. I took a couple of those before I went to sleep. I don’t know if that was what caused this whole mess. It was me looking up at comedians that started their carreer together in a comedy club back in 1976, the year I was born. Eddie Murphy and Jerry Seinfeld. Seinfeld was influence by that guy from Philadelphia, Bill Cosby, with a show about zero-something. He listened to it over and over. This guy makes people laugh. I tell jokes that gets my friends laughing. I could do that. His thought process was getting him where he wanted to be. Up there in the stage. Telling his bits. And getting the reaction from he crowd: a laugh.

You come out and you never know how it’s gonna go. You have to have something going. Something prepared. Eddie hasn’t done it again because he’s got no material. He needs to go back to gym, or something. Work out. I’ve just gone back to gym. One day in one week. I’m happy. Back to the gym, and back to work.

Life seems to work in so mysterious ways that it almost seems like God is taking note of these other ways to improve His game. Obviously He knew all this shit I’m talking about. My comming back bit. My going out bit. Mother fucker send Death to tease me. Don’t act like He doesn’t own it. They work together. It’s the way things work. And so is this, if this is anything.

Life’s happening right now. This is the top moment of my life. And it will only get better.

Eddie Murphy said that. He’s been doing nothing lately. And that’s cool.

Jerry’s been hanging out with comedians getting coffee after taking bumpy rides. The carrera porche he and Eddie rode was meant to be a Lemahns racing car, but it was then just released as a car for the streets. Or the garage. The ultimate token of the showing off how you’ve somehow made it.

The car industry is going down. Telsa cars is comming up. The biggest player in the industry is leaving the past behind. Some of those things we knew will no longer be available, once we spin out the curb. Life’s about to change, and I’ve just realised that it’s been expecting me to come to terms with this new state of affairs.

Don’t waste your time.

Or waste it, if that’s what thrills you. But beware of time. As if there is something you ought to be doing, then get to it. Today: tomorrow: now.

I’ve done my time in the underworld. I’ve come back from it stronger. It’s not this system we need. Let’s not flush the entire world, nor should we allow the Nolan’s break it up into a bigger nightmare they’ll try to brush into palette of this emergent society coming out of this Pandemia.

It’s a social awakening on the go. We are all in diferent ships navigating the high tides of this tsunami. I rather surf my foam out into the sand. I’ve taken a wipeout once again. Spun out alright, I guess. I’m back.

I’ve got the handle of my vessel. This ain’t nothing but a dream. I’ve scaped the light and the darkness of surrender. I’ve travel far beneath the reals of where the roots mingle in romance.

It’s time for me to go back to bed. And let me keep this up. I know I’m comming back. I’m alredy here. Best place I’d could ever wish I’d be.

I only wish I could go back to the field. I could make this Last Dance work. Every team needs a Rodman. Only this time, it’s Golman.

Let this new dream begin.

Flatiron, les Punxes & _________

There is something about a building in that specific end of the urban grid that makes it unique. It was on my dream today. Again. A building like that. As if remainding me that I must aknowledge a path in which situations evolve at a certain pace, that eventually end up in that specific space. I know what the dream is trying to do. Huh… I know. It’s convinced, like me, that there is somthing there to chase, to dream for, in a near future development that requires my play to evolve into that.

What’s my job? I’ve got one now. One of those that comes with a pay at the end of the month, and holidays, and your own business time, as if sometimes you need to explore especial situations that require your time-space, and you need to leave your post. You have those kinds of rights. A sort of union job, even if it’s just a temporary thing. The illusion of sustained future. Alas, I’m out of the pit.

I’ve been drawn to this building for a long time. It was one of those things that I spotted on the map the first time I came to this city. As if there was something to do: to walk along the buildings that make up for a local architecture. A place to be, in public space, that allows you to cherish the moment. Explorers tend to do that, and that’s why when you find yourself in the internet the first thing you’ve got to look for is a navigator. To explore. To embark in a safari, or to be a firefox wondering around searching for your own pokemon chrome. To surf the web, as if you are a daring a surfer. The quest of living on the edge. The path of communications. The futurenow.

I’ve come to terms with myself. I’ve accepted the revolution taking place in my head is just myself of feeling outside the box. Like death taking place in this social scenario. Like the pandemic of a social decay, more that a real health issue: the mental one. I’m mental. That’s the deal. A deal I have to cope with. I know. Other mental dwellers know about it, and face it with a dignity of mental people. Have listen to the sound of mental? Mental is the nicest sound in the English language, if you are comming from the island. It’s like Man Island. I’ve somehow hooked to the idea of a singularity happening to me. A man thing. A golman thing. It’s personal. It’s mental.

So… So I’m searching for chimera. Or utopia. Better yet, the dream has taken me here. And I must go about my business. Life is not what happens over the weekend. It’s what happens to people in a Pandemia. Reclusion. Tight spaces. Unsettleness. Uneasyness. Floating in the waters of despair, searching for hope. Hope is my utopia. It’s my driver. My social enabler. I’m hooked to the idea of prosperity in a social environment that has not unleashed quite yet. It is still cooking in my head. Like a possibility to allocate the future in a safe place. The sustainability of the social transformation that requires our mind shift. As a whole. They way complex systems go about.

I am here to do the supporting role of a play I’ve witness out there. I’m just a poet with a pen, writting away in a notebook what ought to be the next delivery of a glimpse into our inwardly rise. A place insde my being is beating with chords of a song that unleashes the shadows of our doubts. It keeps popping in my head. Like a roller coaster within my system. The first one I’m bound to: my body-soul system. Like a chuck box.

A storage dream to take along a mission to explore. The world inside a building that hides the ends of a new entire system. The transformation pattern of our desire. A new city evolving from the dust in which the reborn are awakening at last.

That’s this new building in my dream. This is the dream within my building. The chuck box in my quest. I’m ready to fill in the blanks. I am just connecting the dots. The dream is still on. The quest is just beginning. The vision of the New world is here, in this city, in this building that englobes the entirerity of…

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