I’ve done some Saturday morning early activity, which included organizing some of the thoughts and ideas that make you jump out of bed to start hitting the brain dump. And it took me places where things got organized: my notebook. I am a writer, a poet, and prophet. Or so I say. Among other things. I can always adapt depending on you interest. And on my day. Or the way I feel about disclosing A or B. Or in any case, I’m still figuring out what I am. Is that alright with you?
Well, to me it’s my natural state of doubt. I feel this is the catalyst of my behaviour. Or at least the pulsion of my writing. I have to come back to the the means for writing, wether the pen or the keyboard. It’s all a means of addressing how we interact with the instruments, the technology, and the self within. And sometime that’s a book. Reading.
Moo Pak has got me from the beginning. And I felt it hits close to home. But it also hits me in a way where I need to pause and think. I need to revise the references I know with the ones that sound familiar with the ones that completely fly over my head. But I don’t go out and explore and make a big analysis about them, or even look for the answers of my questions in Google or ChatGPT. It could be an interesting excercise, or at least a compelling list of future readings, but instead I come back to the basic feeling: to write.
And he writes as if he’s talking to his walking pal, the way I talk with a close friend where the conversation might take me where the extreme extrapolation of my mind feels like in the confort of a good listener and thinker. A talking/walking buddy. But the first element is in the thought process. The second in the writing. And somewhere in between you must always go back to the reading bit. And it keeps the cycle going. And so I’m here, talking like I’m walking, and writing, alas, as the time should be there for words to come to terms to what you are able to express in written form.
Text has become an everyman’s tool when they can plagarise all past writers that have been mined by big tech companies to reproduce the thoughts, style and writting of our greatest literary minds, and also to replicate the simple talk of regular people that have fed the beast with the posts, their articles, their entries in platforms, prompts, google questions, and so on and so forth. And so do i when I come here and blabber around for the kick of it, without actually getting any formal structure into my writting habits. Or maybe the other way around, not founding a habit to make my blurps clear and structure enough to actually write so other people could read.
But who cares, anyway. I fell I’m getting things done, and what I like about taking Moo Pak at my own slow pace is that I can make a habit on writting by reading one page at a time, and then come here to write, not necesarily about that page, but what it triggered: the need and feel for writing. That’s where the connection of the moving parts in your fingers puts your mind into a sense of trance. A special kind of letting go, that the finger tips control over the mind, or the other way around. You are just there witnessing what these two ends of your body are doing among them, without actually figuring out who’s in charge. That’s not my thought, bur rather one that came from page 54 of Moo Pak.
«Why, he says, does that sense of efficiency, of the skills of the hands, seems to be missing when one watches a painter of an sculpture at work?»
Gabriel Josipovici, MOO PAK
The hands of the writer, while wih the pen, or with the typewriter. The hand sof a painter, with a brush, or a sculpture with his hands or tools. I feel that connection, and I also tried, in modern terms, to mimick the possibility of becoming a artist. That is to actually do something with my hands: like painting or sculpting. But I haven’t got there yet. No as far as I know I can take this journey.
In in the mean time, I’ve also venture into writting. As much as a writter is when he’s dedicated some time to write. And then let’s see what happens. When the voice kicks in, and the thoughts and frameworks allow your narrative to emerge from the sense of being, from reading, from the life experiences, and all the other sources out there, but specially in here, that kick in this special notion of creating stories. Or rather text.
Text that can be written, but also text that can be read. Or even text that can be text. For the sake of letting the purpose of the writting show at whichever end of the person doing the reading feels like it. As if we can actually transform other peoples mind or perspective. That’s nonesense. But even while that’s not the intention, it is the only aspect that keeps me comming back to writing: to find myself in the process. And it always does.
So reading and writing are two side of the same coin. And I’m cotinuosly flipping it to see if at some point my luck is revealed in either side. And it always does. But that’s also my fault. Or the trick. To be there, self-aware, present. Pausing. Blabbling. Introducing the tempos of the expression that my mind puts into the words that come out, in a way, and not in another. The sense of this expression to become part of who you are, and who I am. Two sides of the same coin, even if you and me are not the same. Or the other way around.
«When you write every word, every letter even, has to be carefully sought for»…
I read the text and came here to cite it, and this is what came out. The games your memory plays on you.
When actually Josipovici wrote:
«When you write every word has to be carefully sought for, every letter even, if your spelling is as shaky as mine»
Turns out my spelling is just as shaky.
The truth is that’s absolutely bullshit. He’s lying as he’s master the way of writing as an expression that can be unleashed by the forces that take over once the fingers and the mind take control. Somehow, somewhere, you are there, in between, with the intention and the flow leaping back and forth to produce the right word and the proper language of what you are actually capable of producing: NEW language.
Or literature, that is. Or a simple story. Or a tale of two poles. A planet from a new perspective. A NEW look at the entirerity. Just because we can always find a new perspective on things. One that is particular for us. One that makes un unique and irreplaceable. A will of göd.
Let’s take a brand new start, like we are part of NEW new york song lullaby. A crooner with a soul for trust, hope and soul. A sort of prayer to negro soul and ancient covenants from the original priests. A prophet’s sigh. A sense of longing. Be-longing. To Bë.
ALLS
