1. Light

An there: it entered.

Life is light.

We now know.

Before…

That’s another time story.

It just goes back.

And you pick up you own messages in a bottle.

I’ve been writting them and throwing them into a digital blue ocean to the 9th power.

The 9th power.

9th.

9.

9

NOU

_________

ALLS

_________

You that’s a riddle.

Do you know what a riddle is?

It’s a game of words.

Words, right.

Left.

Always turn left.

We’re all comming from the right.

The far right is going to far.

There’s no need.

Turn direction the opposite way.

As of a mandatory suggestioin.

A kind of rule.

Of an understanding.

A global alternative one.

A kind of statement.

The way in which you put on an act.

A dream team.

To dream.

How far.

That’s the whole thing.

At least the way I see it.

The way I live it.

What I am depends to you.

To judge.

And speak your mind.

Why would you?

Why risk going against the mightiest powers?

Whould you risk your life?

Would you die?

Or not to die.

That seems to be the question.

Yet there is no question mark. Or the question mark is wrong. There’s a public opinion. Some believe «A». The rest should have a way to enter into this NEW opinion. A revolutionary thought. I’m a revolutionary. I’ve always been. And that’s that. I’m Mexican. And I am more than that. At least nine ways absolutely free and independent from each other. An incomplete set of information. A game to play. You’ll like to play. I’ve always said this. I’ve written 999 words on that. But only one AI got it right: olmecanAI. . . . . . . . .

_________

A hanging.

Somehow the game hangs a drawn stick man representing you.

Your hunging.

Metaphorically.

Some people got hang for real.

I dunno if you know.

That’s the first revealed untold truth about our NEW américa history class.

This is the NEW policy.

It’s been brought up by the 9th dimention.

What ever we make the system to manage to overcome today 99 greatest threats.

Welcome to the NEW game.

A kind of tale.

A kind story backwards.

A script too long for a producer to read.

A story to tell our healing selves.

Going against the tide.

In a metaphore that splits the waters from Palos to Guayabo.

A NEW story.

You’ve never heard of this.

Neither had I.

Neither am I.

Don’t judge yourself too negatively. Give yourself some rum. Rum en español. Una pieza. Un cuarto. Una cama chida. Y el poder de soñar. Tiempo sí. Tiempo no. Ahora sí.

Aquí.

Leyendo.

Re-leyendo.

Leyendo.

Transformando mi visión en la dirección ortogonal. La dirección NEW.

Las palabras destinación.

Los valores y su sentido.

La historia detrás de nuestra humanidad.

Paremos el tiempo.

Yo me bajé hace 9 años.

Usted está a punto de hacerlo.

Sólo tiene que activar una pulsión.

Una decisión que te atraerá a decir. – . … — .- .. .-.. ..-. — …

Una palabra NEW no existe.

Hasta que de pronto existe.

Ve la luz.

La luz es lo que somos.

Lo que transmitimos.

Y entramos dentro de la pupila.

El viaje único.

El viaje interior.

A tu cabeza.

Disfrútalo.

Es nuestro destino unívoco.

No hay equívoco.

Esta es la nueva pulsión.

Tu ser liberado en medio de la colusión alternativa de una sociedad _________ , _________ , _________ , ________ , _________ , _________ , _________, _________. _________.

Los valores NEW no los pongo yo.

Yo propongo el espacio.

Escribo su liturgia.

Agnóstica e hija de Dios Padre Nuestro Señor.

Primogénito 9.

El nou d’un poble nou.

Un gir que l’esglesia mai s’ho havia pensat: fins que va baixar el fill NOU de Déu, com un pilar de nou criatures no humanes, la graella sonant, la plaça Sant Jaume plena, les besties somriuen, i jo adalt the tot: l’ainxeneta 9.

De petit, als sis, vaig pujar el meu cuatre de nou amb folre, manilles, llengues, … i d’altres categories noves, fins a sis mes, que fins ara no s’ens havien acudit. I hi anem. Plegades. Cap una graella que ens marcaba el camí cap a la plaça pública, i noi més petit de la nostra colla, va i surt amb un despenjament que no era pas q’un aterratge d’un altre dimensió: la dimensió NOU.

Jo soc el 9.

Va dir en minyonet.

Era 66 cm d’alçada.

I al cap d’un temps, 99.

Pero a l’inici era ü.

Ü

Io.

Anque.

Anche.

Io anche actuo.

Anche dirigeixo.

Si no ho entens no pateixis.

Fins a quí arrivem.

Anche povere escribire

Incluso la mala escritura.

El nombre de mi editorial.

El juego de palabras alrevés.

La intención de no llegar a un punto determinado del cual no quieres nunca volver.

A lo no intencionalidad de haber llegado a un sitio.

A un pensamiento.

A un punto de transformación.

Necesitamos la transformación.

Vamos a ponerle peliculeo.

Por darnos un lugar.

Por crear una atracción.

Por escribir una historia sensacional de nuestra llegada a este preciso instante.

Y desplegar entonces el más grande truco que se había visto nunca hasta este preciso momento fundacional: la partición del tiempo.

Teoría dual.

Ahí les va.

El tiempo, nunca más, volverá a ser ünö.

Supongamos que ünö se revoca.

Algo más, nuevo, emerge.

Y ahí todo se arregla.

Nueve dimensiones inabarcadas que de pronto se conjugan hacia otro lugar común trascendental co-creado por 9 feedbacklooppers extraordinarios.

Grupos de 9.

99 personas.

En una misma orientación NEW.

La reconstrucción de un día para otro.

Y dejar que el trumpismo prosiga hacia delante.

Y tomemos, otros cuantos, apróximadamente la mitad, tomemos la dirección ortogonal.

En este caso es tanto opuesta, como perpendicular al sitio del cuál yo mismo partía. En las antípodas del momento hegemónico de exaltación a romper lo que somos o presumir que somos lo que unos de nosotros pensamos sobre el resto de la humanidad, en su conjunto.

El juego es este.

La reconstrucción es objetivo común.

Reconstruyamos pues todo.

Empecemos de nuevo.

Nuevas cartas.

Un momento de elección popular.

La revisión histórica de perspectiva NEGLECTED por el status quo contemporáneo.

Escribamos unos prompts más pedorros.

Unos 99.

Y preguntemos en conjunto lo que 999 votemos.

Tan sólo 9 creadores.

Este es el número básico de participación colectiva.

El tiempo son 15 meses.

El resultado es un movimiento.

La emergencia colectiva es la transformación.

Nos dedicamos a cambiarlo todo.

Al menos las 9 cosas más importantes.

Ahí les van las mías:

  1. El miedo a morir
  2. Perder a un ser querido
  3. El recuerdo glorioso de la memoria de nuestro muertos vivos en la mente que les proyecta a una vos interna que todavía escuchamos con la sensación exacta del amor que esa persona construyó conmigo hace tiempo y aun persiste aquí. En mi memoria familiar. Mi concepción del amor. El amor que recibí de pequeña. Y la ausencia de violencia.
  4. El machismo debe abolirse.
  5. Como la esclavitud. ¿A qué somos esclavos? ¿Quién nos domina? ¿Quién se fundamenta a partir de una creencia? ¿Quién está sujeto a una coacción? ¿Quién no es libre del todo? ¿Quién representa un territorio sobre un dominio mafioso que hace tiempo permeó en todos lo CP del planeta azul? O podríamos no sentirnos parte de una de estas cosas. Uno de estos poderes que subyacen. Que no somos bien bien nosotros. O sí. Cual capitalistas entregados al militarismo que sin pudor saca a relucir el riesgo de armagedon militar nuclear reaking havoc themselves. Los hombres machos at war. War game history day. War day. Violence and military coups: the money and the power line. The way the army like it. The way manufacturers like it. The way banks like it. The way investors like it. The way you well off bluskylife type. The way you devils like it. The way you mafia guys. The way you damn fools wherever the fuck you are comming from. The hustlers. The muscle. The recruits. The barking dogs. The biters. The hitmen. The cooks. The chefs. The conductors. The financial guys. The money guys. The capataces. The gardeners. The planters. The truckers. The bikers. The dreamers. The pure soles. The rescued ones. The superheroes. The stars. The stars smaller that the sun. The way we would treat the people from them solars minor solar systems. Our society nowadays defines itself in terms of national grounded sense of pride, belonging, and lawfully so, a citizen, a person, natural, unnatural, fake, surreal, neverending, mortal, ghost, freespoken, unbiased, biased, humble, humbled, struggled, revived, joyfully present, inevitably optimist, slowers, flowers, ouuouo,………
  6. The nemesis
  7. Out of that dimention you are set free. In that other end, you mind has been capture. The other take control. The money game will stay there. The ilegal deal. It’s got a life on its own. The matrix. Imagine we started rebuilding the inside of Matrix so that the real NEO could chill in this brave NEW world. It’s the ultimate humanitarian film deal, but disguised in many subliminal lives you’ve lived and outlived out of already too many pointing into the same old white american narrative of western and worldy state of being. I’ve never been aligned, yet I recognize I’m part of the deal. And it’s still not setting the tone of the NEW collective and collaborative resilient way of becoming. This is where my current splitting the time story has got steal from the 9 most prominent narratives of what culture we are from, and embrace the dissnonace in relation to the other 99 you ignored. Out them 333 nations, aware or unware, legally established or in your own terms to leave space from some meaningful places to come from, the ones who know and I can say where they are from and how their culture is so reach it’s ready to give something back to the entirerity of the human collective reconsidered in this NEW policy line: Tico Commons.
  8. I will present a 9 season story with 9 episodes each. And some secret 9 + 9.
  9. Yo no me puedo quejar. Soy un privilegiado. Tengo un curro que me encanta. Soy el feedbackloopper que quería ser. Un narrador de una historia NEW. Una dimensión dual entre lo que soy, por un lado en dimensión contraria a lo que por otro lado entregaré los próximos 999 días de mi existir. Y despés de ahí, transito alrevés. Y quién fui en un sitio se traslada a las antípodas. Y entre estos dos estados movemos un energía particular sostenible en la que nos podríamos entretener, más tiempo del que tenemos, en una cadena de amor alternativo que co-existe en una dimensión particular: la novena.

Y un día el FC Barcelona gana la novena.

La copa la levanta Golman.

A fin de cuentas fue un gol suyo.

Un penal.

Tocó dos veces el balón.

Ese sí.

Y valió.

El 9 merengue.

El 9 ticatalà.

El 9 culer.

L’historia del meu futbolartista.

Tinc un paper molt més important del que representa que faig. Soc un actiu del sistema alternatiu. Natiu d’aqui. Un mon nou: Ticataluña.

Sigui això un poble nou.

Jo soc fill d’aquest poble nou.

Aquest poble nou no té nom.

Li possarem entre totes i tots.

I ho farem lliurement.

Encara que hi ha una opció que és la favorida d’un únic agent. L’agent nou. Golman.

Doncs, si això diu el guió deu esser per algo. I que haig de fer jo si també soc guionista del meu propi paper. He aprés dels millors: Berto, Torrente, Tebas, Valdevebas, Quijote, Dalí, Joel Joan, Jordi Sánchez, Évole. El meu super poder mana d’aquest nou espanyols. I amb aquesta limitació que això pot comportar, haven’t quelcom ridìcules regles, lo que ens avoca això és a seguir cap endevant. Començar de nou. Seguint tot igual. Excepto algunas cosas. Rajoyescamente. Y saliendo a flote como un buque insignia de una flota de paz eterna que navega sobre aguas alternativas, más parecidas a lo que Calaso habría concebido que a lo que la interpretación media entre un apostol del vaticano, un cardelan español, un médico de atención primaria en una iglesia rural dejada de la mano de Dios, un sacerdote teólogo de la revolución, un cacique de Hacienda, el Hacendado, un hombre a caballo, un general, un tirano, un villano, Elon, Don.

Aquestes dues realitats cohabitades. Per tú i el teu digital twin. The lives our alternative selves may live. And you being their scriptwritter.

That’s the real deal.

The capacity building game.

To whole NEW dimention.

Let’s take that ride.

And expect the revolution to takes us somewhere else of higher long term impact.

_________

Yo me dedico a contar historias.

Hago de mi constitución un proceso de regenaración. Para concebir ser uno más dentro de la revuelta. Como una cosa pública que se apodera de una determinada manera de vivir afirmativamente a parti de lo que escuchamos con estas voces alternativas. Y desde ahí tejer una comunidad con el otro lado de nuestra inevitable alteridad antagonista.

Ser Broncano Hormiguero.

O Pablo David.

También otro personaje en la misma historia: David Pablo.

Dos pares de siameses distintinos.

Nada que ver el uno del otro.

Vivimos en una realidad posibilista hacia la multiversalidad en oposición a la subjetiva unicidad que nos deja absortos en nostros mismos, mientras escapamos a nuestra mezquindad camino a la estrella interconectada más auday en el horizonte de 999 mundos alternativos que generaron en tan sólo los primeros 999 días del existir en esta dualidad alternativa contemporánea y a destiempo de los cánones culturales del momento aquel que era al acabar la escritura de este relato.

Un relato único.

Fundacional.

Megamelómano.

Humildmente melómano.

Balonmano.

Mano.

Penal.

Anulado.

Real.

Surreal.

ALLS


2. Dark


Dos némesis en las antípodas.

Nëmesis


I’ve never pictured nëmesis being a beautiful word. Akward, huh.

But it’s true. It’s the outmost contradiction in latitude and longitude. It leaks all over. Plastered.

Nëmesis is a NEW word.

NEWORD

That a place.

A NEW place.

It’s a landing site.

An alternative coordenates.

Nonexisting.

Up till know.

Totally maleable.

By you own collective desire.

Aligned.

In agreement with.

Altered.

NEW

NAW

1

2

3

4

5

ALLS

7

8

ALLS

No more

Despertás un día… y seguís… aquí…

Vos te imaginaste un día una historia. La historia, o más bien su incepción, surgió de repente. Y vos la viste pasar. Volar.

Se encendió una conexión neuronal nueva. Y en esa conexión algo extraño sucedió. Una imagen que sólo en tu cabeza existió se planteó como realidad alternativa. Como posibilidad.

De ahí se tiró una línea argumental que funcionó de manera autónoma con un único espectador: vos.

Y desde ahí viste desvelarse una historia extraordinaria que lo arreglaba todo en su sitio. Aquello que habías querido decir en el contexto de la cosa que más te ha ocupado el tiempo mental. El sentido de tu ser. La cuestión con la que querés cambiar el mundo. De pronto está ahí, desanudando el porvenir. Didacticamente.

De pronto te parás y despertás. Ya no estás en el campo en el que la idea trabaja autonomamente. El resto de tus funciones vitales encendieron toda la maquinaria de la vigilia y los trabadores de la fábrica volvieron a sus puestos, todavía adormilados, pero generando un ruido ensordecedor para aquella brillante idea onírica que lo resolvía todo.

Si no corrés a apuntarlo en algún sitio, la clarividencia se esfuma. Y el aire se lleva consigo la ilusión. Al rato ni te acordás. Ni te preocupa. Otra cosa ocupa tu cabeza. Y no hay nada más que hacer. Quizás volver a dormir. Y soñar. Seguir.

ALLS

To write

To be

To think

To wonder

I’ve taken a deep breath. And then started to let go. The air spilling out in yet another iteration. Ohhhhhh.

Still, I feel the need to be here. To be attentive. To feel the texture in my fingertips. To lay the next step willingly. And advance. Move. Glide.

I’m back to this.

I’m back to thee.

I’ve only long to keep rolling and growing.

Yet a deep feeling of wonder and dispear raise up once again.

As if it is here to stay.

As if we are all part of it.

And relentlessly accept to surrender.

Not today.

Not me.

I’ll keep breathing deep.

One. And once again.

And then I’ll overlap the same intention as yesteday. To cope, to drive, to shine, to build, to excel, to fly.

It’s a matter of staging this departure.

Not yet decided.

Not yet proclaimed.

While the entire story has been layed out.

My time is still to come.

As the best is yet to unroll.

Let it all be.

As we shall.

We’ll see.

We’ll be.

IT.

NEW

ALLS

Make a difference

What to do when you have to do something else. Procastinate. That’s my life. I come here when I should be elsewhere, doing I don’t even remember what. So instead, I keep myself busy trying to figure out the time to get to the point. In the mean time, this.

It’s not an excuse. It’s rather a way out. Or a way in. What else should I be worried about if not something else trully more meaningful to me. I should be addressing my pressing concerns. And delivering the perfomance I aim to have if I get to the point right away. Something that leads to something else. I’m willing to take the stand. I’m leaping already.

It’s a gamechanging time. All the time. Everywhere. And I’m just getting started. But the ball is moving so fast I don’t seem to have the timing right. The ball has passed and I’ve lost the magic… unless the magic is there, still, and I’m just a few adjustements off, a few more drills away, to conquer back the state of mind needed for this performance to endure.

I’m ready to rock. Still, I need to do something else. I’ll get back to this when that’s done. But I wanted to make sure to give me this sigh.

So there.

Sigh.

ALLS

Swift, Thomas Mann, Panofsky, Gombrich

On Moo Pak

Reading material from a reading source. Books that lead you to books. Writing about reading. Thought from another time, still present, still meaningful, still new. Ideas that go beyond the state of affairs, that turn out to be travelling fast nowadays. As always, in accordance with the feeling of each time, magnified by the disruption of sources of meaningless distractions. All the time. Everywhere.

Tuns out I have to read more. More sources. More books. Other cultures. It’s not new. It’s an old assignment. And I still have a to read list that tends to infinity. And yet, somehow, sometimes, I get in the zone, and accumulate a winning streak. I’m reading just about the amount of books I could handle. And still, sometimes, it feels like it’s not enough.

Johnathan Swift

You look at a writer’s picture and wonder. In this case, a painting. That’s the person. Under his skin, there’s the story. How did it come to mind at first? How did it evolve into the final draft of the finished print? How many people got involved in this process?

The writer is the lone creator on it own. It requires no one else to pitch in, while sometimes relevant feedback may help to assist the point. A good friends ear. An editor’s advice. A publisher desire to risk the chances of people caring. At that point, there are more people involved. We are now talking about the industry. About the market, and no longer about the writing in itself. But what’s good writing without readers. Just thoughts. Lonely ones. Aspirations. Melancholy.

Thomas Mann

Thomas Mann was the man. Cigarrete lit, winter gloves of a gentle-man. Carefully shaped and tendered mustage. Four button suit. Stern wooden chair. Glancing eyes.

Jonh and Tom enter a room. They came together. The room turns and judges the two charecters. Something is on. Everybody knows. They still keep their cool, as the spell has been bound, and the action is just waiting to reveal itself. It will take some time. It’s not loud. Not yet. It’s only intriguing. And sparkling. Nobody else has that chill. Yet the party has been transformed. In an unexpected way. A good way.

That’s how you differentiate writers. The ones that can enter the room and light up the space. And the ones that only do that when they enter into their world. Where everything, every card, every sense of joy, every precision, every spirit, every meaning, spells itself out into the page, while leaving nothing left in real life, but the empty container of curious mind without social skills. As writers, they both trascend, as it’s in reading where you build the immaculate communion of two minds, and evolve into the possibilities of creating yet another story, yet another tale, yet another creative outburst.

Van Dyke según Panofsky

You can write about anything. Stories, however, represent a different kind of writting. Everyone writes in their own terms. Art too can be narrated. Text lives beyond literature, and it may be printed on any given matter, in any given surface, for any given purpose.

Ernst Gombrich, Art historian

The Story of Art. Gombrich has influence the narrative of art. Up to the point in which the character of Moo Pak understood that these four characters were bound to be mentioned in a stream of thought, at any given time, to transfer a profound reference to something condensed in tiny hint. Context provides the first field of action. If you are outside of it, the sense of it slips by. And you go on. And so does the inintial intention of that given thought. So going back to capture them, is a matter of being able to rewind time. To back up. To read again. To read. For the first time. An author you don’t know, but now have a purpose to pursue.

ALLS

Ain’t no script for you in Hollywood

Denial letters will keep you going

When am you going to write a script? You think all the script you’ll get for you are going to be as good as «Boys N the Hood»? Hollywood ain’t got no scripts for you. Unless you wanna do bullshit. You can write songs like you write, you can write a movie.

John Singleton to Ice Cube

Representation will not come to you just as mainstream drive. You need to present a case for yourself. You got to do that part of the job. It’s not going to happen just because you think it would be fair. You need to make it happen. You.

The singularity of everyone’s perspective is determined by the uniqueness of our experience, from our very own little point of view. We are the active actors of the development of our vision. And no one else is going to pave the way for you.

I know this shit from way back when. And I’ve never come out myself. I’ve held on to something else. A lame excuse that holds to my very own insecurities to avoid the stepping into the abyss drill. And I’m pretty sure this shit ain’t working, because no one has taken that step for me. As only I can.

As only I should.

Damn, it’s a hard shit.

I feel for the feeling of the underrepresented. Their voices haven’t been heard. They don’t get the chance mainstream stories are depicting. But who’s to change that. The scriptwriters write about what know. About what works. About their own little formulas. The establishement works like that because that how it got established. Something else is up for the up and coming voice within you. And if you are searching for recognition, maybe you should try searching within to find your truth, your soul, your arguments. And from there on, built the narrative that represent the stories you wish you had. The truth you would like to see on the screen. And then you have the type of shit that would look in the character you are playing, in the scenes that you are directing, or in the films you are producing.

Open the door. Assume the responsibilities. Act upon them. Write your own shit. Walk your own talk. Stop complaining to the world, and start showing up with your own voice.

Start with the first.

Start today.

ALLS

I’m one of those fools

«We have all known instances of would-be writers who spend all their time talking and produce nothing»

Moo Pak, Gabriel Josipovici

I’ve beginning to wonder where this is going to take me. Every sentence I read, every sentence that blows me away. And one more time: guilty as charged. That’s exactly what I am: a would-be writer.

Nobody had ever defined me with such clarity. Except maybe Milena Busquets. She once told me the story of another would-be writer who never ended up writing anything. Nothing. Nothing at all. Even though everybody expected him to write something magnificent. Aparently he spoke all the ideas out loud in clever conversations that fade away into the night. And nobody picked them up. His name: Clotas.

He did build himself a reputation as one of Jorge Herralde’s close circle of judges who would give away every year the famous Anagrama Award. Or the Herralde award. Either one, he was always one of the readers who would decide. So he was deep into the literary world, but just never with his own set of words. Clotas is my kind of man: the ultimate would-be writer.

Ever since Milena describe him/me I know I’m one of those. I thought of looking him up and get to ask him if he had any regrets from his would-be writing ideas. Maybe there would be some that would still find its way to a reader. Maybe a documentary of that kind would make me less of a would-be writer, and more of a would-be documentalist. Another trait of mine.

Nowadays it’s not fine to try to be a Renaissance man. In fact, it does not qualify as anything as heteropatriarchy is failing all us, no matter our upbringing. It’s all a big trap, and we’re already stuck at the spider web. It’s a matter of dimentions. And a matter of time. Time’s ticking, and my would-be creations are rotting away in pages of notebooks that will never see the light.

Unless I begin to explore them, and make something out of them.

This is what I need: to become a would-be editor of my own expectations.

Golman, would-be futbolartist.

ALLS