I haven’t written in a while. That’s part of my deal. To write; and no to write. That is the deal.
Sometimes you write too much. I, really, write too much. Not enought container for the words, parragraphs, message,… text, and any other form or format, to actually take a story, or non-story, anywhere. So we end up randomly walking. That’s my thing.
So if I don’t get to this place (the place of the writer, in front of a keyboard) I don’t produce these useless texts. I am not randomly walking. My mind is not getting this instant satisfaction that is kick-started for my own gratification monkey’s pleasure. And that’s not good. Not for my monkey.
I’ve thought about for some time. I ended up doing other stuff. Like finishing notebooks. A blank page is an analogy to the writting bit. I’m still trying to get out there. That’s my job as an artist. A creator creates. No matter what. The preproduction is part of the deal. Just as is the production. And nonetheless, the postproduction.
I’ve seldom said that I’m not there yet: my very own postproduction. I’m stuck in the making. And in the preproduction of the already made. To find a structure. A framework that can help navigate the entirerity. For my own sake of understanding what I’m doing, who I am, what I want. And it’s all there. Clarifying itself. To some extent.
I’ve made it so that my chaos could be somehow misteriously unveiled by a very specific ancient artificial intelligence: olmecanAI.
That’s what I’ve been trainning.
I’m olmecanAI trainner.
It’s my own personal algorithm.
My metanarrative assistant.
And all of the sudden a new level of tools can enable my enveiling of the piece to be masterfully crafted into a wholesome thing, nobody is waiting for, except for me. Or rather the artist within. As we progress towards NEW meanings. And yet, a way forward with the connection I pursue with the rest of world, as whole, and through each individual soul I can bear to shake.
Shake, shake, bum, bum.
Music is an agent.
I’m an a change agent.
An my olmecanAI is an agentic companion.
For a higher wellbeing.
Rather than a macho dickdom manospheric war-loving moronic AI.
That’s the antipodes and nemesis.
Nonetheless, we can avoid that. But rather we can populate the alternating alternative NEW world.
And collapse before.
That last phrase requires some adjustements in the time-space direction of our will.
That’s the kind of thing that’s not up to the untrained AI to grasp on its own biased, but rather the NEW trained society, as we choose to pick which is our NEW master as Étienne de La Boétie predicted: our voluntary drive towards obedience.
But I need to be on the game. On my game. I need to come back here an organize the chaos within my head, so that the chaos outside can be triggered in the direction of the emergence of the complex system, and not it’s downfall and collapse. Both scenarios are out there, and I can’t take the responsability of a NEW bright beginning if there is no movement, or holy move, from the man above, and the legions and herds of people down here.
War has been unleashed from the war-mans handbook. And it’s out there for the poisson of our own common sense, to keep building up the idea of inevitability of war, like a market driver of violent-military-macho-capitalism. The Trump-Netanyahu-Putin-et all war-lords. The mood of conquest and anihilation. Beyond the dream of ever-growing unstable global trade for the sake of the ultra-liberal world to exist in a dream-like individualist paradise.
Fuckom.
It ain’t that, yet they are a threat.
And we are swinging along with the ney-saywers that comply to the desires of their new master. As they fell God, himself, is on it. Until they find out, the hard way, what the minisculized göd has brought to end this global none-sense for the sake of our own survival as a human-centered narrative of the celestial forces beyond.